Unfortunate Events

Friday, January 29, 2010

I didn't go running today. It was all in the plan but today took a bad turn. Not bad. Just unfortunate. Well.. there were two unfortunate occurances today but the reason I did not go running was because my car broke. :( I was leaving our pediatrician's office because D had her Synagis shot today and the spring (I think) in the ignition is broken. Or something. Ask Clint. So he came down from work, tried to figure out if he could fix it, then realized he couldn't because of the air bag, then had to leave for Ogden. SO.. I had to call a tow truck and have it taken to an auto shop to sit there until Monday. Dumb. So tomorrow is running day #1 and I'm EXCITED!!

Unfortunate event #2.
We found out at the pediatrican that Darbi, for 2 months now, has not gained weight. :( She was 14 pounds 2 ounces at the beginning of December, 14 pounds 9 ounces mid January, and back to 14 pounds 2 ounces today. For the last two weight checks, we weighed multiple times just to make sure. UGH. Our feeding plan has just changed and now I am even more a slave to Darbi but ALSO to a hospital grade pump again. :( BOO. And I thought we had parted ways once and for all.

So now I will wake up, feed Darbi some solids as best I can - then top her off with a bottle of frozen breastmilk fortified with Nutramigen to make sure she's full. Then I pump. I nurse her one or two times, then give another bottle of breastmilk and Nutramigen midday, then I pump. I nurse for one or two more times and in the evening we try another solid and then you guessed it... ANOTHER bottle of breastmilk/Nutramigen yumminess. THEN I pump. I am not supposed to let her go longer than 3 hours between feedings. I convieniently forgot to ask if that counts while she's sleeping so I vote that it doesn't and we'll all sleep for a lovely 9-12 hours! :)
Oh the things I do for this girl.

But she was super cute after her appointment while we were waiting for Clint to come get us...

I sat her in her car seat and she maneuvered herself into this position all by herself. She was cracking me up!!!

How I found D this morning...

On the baby monitor this morning, instead of her crying out for me like normal, I hear "Uhhh-uh" and "Ahhh-uh-uh". She pulled off her headband and cannula. She knows how to scoot at least...

Where have I been???

Thursday, January 28, 2010

WOW I've been in a funk. A blogging, cleaning, exercising, bill paying, unmotivated funk... I have not been in the mood to do ANYTHING. UGH. I'm trying to pull myself out of it. These dreary Utah winter days are getting to me. And I don't even go outside much. I sit at home and play with Darbi. That is all I want to do!!! She gets cuter and cuter by the hour. I'm not kidding. I love this kid!! We're so close to crawling it's crazy! But knowing us, that will translate into... Darbi won't actually crawl for 2 more months. We'll see. I'm hoping that one of these days I'll turn my back while she's playing on the floor and I'll find her across the room. She wants to SO BADLY. It's killing me!! I work so hard with her everyday. But I guess that will really be the end of my life. I'm sure nothing will get done after that. Just like nothing gets done now. :)

I've actually been talking a ton of pictures and videos but obviously haven't shared them because of the aforementioned funk. Mom got me the Project Life kit by Becky Higgins for Christmas and I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT. It will seriously be so easy. So. Easy. Essentially, I will be taking a picture a day, which in reality means I'll just do a two page layout of the week and most of the pictures will be of one day. :) I'm doing really well so far and it's not as hard as I anticipated. I'll be working on the majority of January this Saturday so hopefully I'll post what it looks like so you are all motivated to get your 2010 pictures organized. I'm telling you! SO. EASY.

I've been exercising. LIKE CRAZY. Well.. up until a week ago... like crazy. :) Jillian Michaels is my trainer and she's GOOD. I've been doing the 30 Day Shred video and it's been fabulous for me! In the past, workout videos haven't worked. I ran cross country in high school and so exercise to me is an outdoor activity and I don't get how you can break a sweat indoors and get results. BUT when it's cold... that's another story so I'm learning how to do it! I'd rather run 4 miles in 105 degree weather than 20. I took a week long break from the video because Mr. Bingley came to town. HA! That was what my roommates and I called our monthly monster my freshman year at BYU. I don't remember why.. but he had a Scottish accent, I think. Becky... why did we call it that again??? Anyway.. that is what started the funk but today, I SHREDDED again and it was AWESOME. I have been eating better, applying bits of the Weight Watchers philosophy without actually attending meetings and paying the fees. I think it's working! I have, since Jan 6th, lost 7 pounds and a total of 3 inches from various places on my body. ;) My pants fit a little better and hopefully, in no time at all, they won't fit at all!! The video is on sale right now at Target for $9! You should all go out and get it! :)

Also, my brother-in-law just joined the Marines, and I'm SO EXCITED for him! This is going to be an awesome opportunity for him. He has to get in tip top shape so he asked me today to start running with him everyday. This kid hasn't gone running in like a year and busted out a 6 1/2 minute mile.. MINE IS LIKE 15. He's going to kick my butt. I really want to try and run a half marathon this summer and Kade.. you better help me get there!!! He doesn't read this blog so I'll just have a little talk with him tomorrow. I'm really excited about the running... not the cold. I HATE COLD WEATHER. It's no secret to anyone I know though. I'm a grump when it snows.

We have our Follow-Up Clinic for Darbi next Friday and I want her to show off for all her doctors so I'm working super hard with her. We had her 12 month checkup last week and she weighed 14 pounds 9 ounces. We lost a little weight in December but our pediatrician isn't so worried. She was eating solids extremely well while we were in AZ but once we came home.. she was not interested at all. I have to sing, play airplane, and keep all other distractions to a minimum just to get her to even think about opening her mouth. This was a HUGE step backwards for us. I spoke with the Dr. about it and he said the is common... and we know that but it's still not fun. So we try a solid in the morning, rotating between a fruit, a veggie, and rice/oatmeal cereal, she gets a bottle of breastmilk fortified with 26 kcal Nutramigen with her vitamins in the evening and she nurses for every other meal. Hopefully she gains a lot this month. We also found out today that with our new insurance, each month we have to pay 20% of our Synagis shot each month. :( That is a hefty amount.. UGH. I hate bills.

I'll get some pictures up of our lives from the last few weeks soon. Maybe tonight... but probably tomorrow. :)


Thursday, January 21, 2010

We've officially accidentally bought our first Redbox movie. :( I'm such a procrastinator and it wasn't even a SUPER movie to pay $25 for!! But I still really liked it. We now own The Brothers Bloom. It was a bit predictable but also a bit surprising. If you want to borrow it, I have it! But I only lend movies out to people I trust who won't ruin it or lose it. I mean come on! I paid $25 for this thing!!

It's been a little crazy around here...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

This last week we (I) have been cleaning, gutting, and organizing our little apartment TO THE MAX. I'm no where near done either. We have 2 bedrooms. One is where D, Clint, and I sleep... up until 2 days ago that is. The other room is (was) the office/scrapbook/storage/dump zone/front closet/stuff that normally goes in a garage room. Let me tell you. It's not that big. I don't know how we got that much stuff in there and where did it all come from?! This last week I spent making piles of stuff to throw away, stuff to take to our storage unit (which until now, has not been utilized to the max), and stuff to donate. It is looking much better but I still have crap EVERYWHERE.

I organized enough so that we could switch the desk from the crap room with Darbi's crib. We spent Saturday playing Tetris in our little apartment trying to get everything where it needed to be without moving too much stuff/taking doors down/putting holes it the wall... and we did awesome!!!

D and I taking a break while Clint and Kade moved the heavy stuff.

The "clean" half of Darbi's new room! I haven't decorated the "nursery" section of the room at all.. I'm still looking for cute ideas. Pass them along if you have any! :)

Aaaannd... the other half of D's room! This will be where I store my scrapbook stuff. I know it looks messy but don't you just want to jump in and start organizing?! I know I don't... but all the colors are pretty! :)

While we were setting up the computers in our room, D was playing on our bed. She found the mother-load of oxygen supplies that I had stored in a basket.

She was pretty excited about it. :)

So last night (Saturday night) was the first night sleeping in different rooms. I wasn't really nervous about putting her in her own room because we have the heart monitor but I was feeling extremely lonely!!! How lame is that?! But now I don't have to tip toe when I go to bed and same for Clint when he goes to work in the morning.

For about the last 3 weeks, night time has been HORRIBLE. I don't know what has changed. I dread putting her to sleep because it just doesn't work. And once she's asleep, she'll wake up anywhere from 3-6 times!! I chalked it up to Clint's snoring (sorry Clint. :). But last night she woke up 4 times in her own room. It's exhausting! Hopefully it will just take a few nights for her to adjust. Tonight we tried letting her cry it out and she cried for an hour and a half. Not just cried... screamed and hyperventilated and there was snot everywhere. It was not pretty.

So I hope this game of tetris we played this weekend will be beneficial all around. I'll be spending the next week making storage/DI/dump trips so my house will be in order again. The clutter is making me crazy!!!

Wiggle Worm

We're sitting, bracing, reaching, and leaning! Just not crawling... still... I know she wants to.. BAD. She's all over the place when you hold her. She sees something, goes for it, and usually gets stuck... mmm... gets stuck, falls off the couch... same thing. Just kidding!!! Ok really.. It only happened once. I promise!!! So we're getting there. Clint and I are hoping by Valentine's Day she's crawling. We need a goal date so we really work with her. It's slowly coming along.

She wiggled herself into that position all by herself! Don't worry.. we were watching her and now we always strap her in. She likes to dive head first to the ground... often.

Justice is Served!

Monday, January 11, 2010

How sweet is this?! Kiddie Kandid's just declared BANKRUPCY!!!


Birthday Pictures

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

We went to Kiddie Kandids to have Darbi's one year old pictures taken. We went there because it was convenient. Never again will I go to Kiddie Kandids... just so you all know. It was initally a good experience but the process of choosing which pictures to buy based on their plans and then the quality of the pictures was a whole other ordeal. I won't go into it but I am happy with how they turned out. This little girl can turn on the charm like a light switch! She is such a swooner!

One of the reasons we were so dissapointed was because of that awesome dirt like you can see on the left side of Darbi. It was in EVERY picture across the entire picture. They didn't clean their backdrops very often obviously and then when we made a fuss about it the girl just said "Sorry. We don't Photoshop here." Are you kidding me??? We got them to fix the problem (sorta.. as per the picture above) but never again will I go there. They would never hang up a picture in their studios that is cut in half by a disgusting dust line. So why should I?


Tuesday, January 5, 2010

This past week has been a very reflective one for me. Last year's new year was not cause for celebration.. and yet, I guess.. it kind of was. We spent the day worrying, sleeping, stressing, recovering, crying... most of the day I don't really remember. I'm sort of glad for that. Day 1 of 2009 started off a little rocky but slowly got better. I'm happy to say that Day 1 of 2010 was a heck of a lot better. Looking back, the year flew by and I'm pretty sure I'm a completely different person now. I wouldn't change it for anything though. I have learned so much about myself and about who I want to be. I've learned that there is no right or wrong way to be a Mom.. hopefully the way I'm doing it will be good enough.

I've never been one for making resolutions and sticking to them. I've never really made resolutions. At least not during the New Year. However, January 1st has a special place in my heart and that day, to me, is the definition of change. My whole world changed on January 1st. Therefore, I think it's time I make some changes. I have decided 2010 will be my year. I am going to be the best I can be in every area I can. I won't stress over it but I think that it will bring me more happiness. I have put myself on hold this last year, for obvious reasons. In order for me to be a better wife and mom, I need to make sure that I take time to keep my goals, needs (and sometimes wants) in check. This is it. I've been reading about taking on a word to define the year. There are so many to choose from but I think the one that defines my current situation is VITALITY. The power to live or grow. My favorite definition - the capacity for survival or for the continuation of a meaningful or purposeful existence.

I want to cut out the negativity and drama that sometimes forces its way into my life and I won't tolerate it. This is going to be a fabulous year for our little family. I have a ton of other goals that I have mentally set for myself. I should post them so as to hold me to them... but I'm not brave enough for that. One thing I know is I have decided that no matter what this year brings, I'll be happy about it!

We have TWO of 'em!

I tried my best to finally get a picture of these two little guys.
The first one cut through December 10th
and the second one, maybe 2 weeks-ish later.
Please ignore my poorly manicured hands...
and now that I've said that,
don't go looking at them.
Remember, this post is about the teeth.

Clint's New Job

Monday, January 4, 2010

Clint started his new job on Monday and so far is LOVING it. Hopefully this will be a really great step in the right direction for us. Clint could definitely make a career out of working for this company because he will be working in the field his is going to school for.. (something about computers.. if you really want to know.. as him. Beats me what he really does. :) But best of all.. we finally have health insurance!!

Happy Birthday to my little girl

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy Year One, Baby Girl!!

I just love to look at these pretty little pom pom's. We left them up for a few days. They were more for me than her. :)